Posts tagged: richmond
Some photo’s from my visit to the Virginia War Memorial on Memorial Day later that evening.
Me and the 60D made some rounds this evening taking some photo’s of the Richmond skyline. First photo op I’ve done this year and in months.
Well every now and again I get someone that asks me “what are you”? Like yesterday morning at Wawa, the shift manager who the day before when I came in to get a breakfast bagel, said something to me and I did not respond, so I quickly got a “what you can’t talk” Now this morning she just got off a register as I was walking up and she’s like I’ll take you, I said “morning” this time. So she rings up my first item, and I get the question of “what are you” Now I don’t know why but 90% or more of the time it’s a black female whose asks me this question (she’s black). Normally I respond quickly with half white, half Filipino because I don’t find it awkward that I was just asked since I’ve been asked so many times. Guess through my country looking self and that unexpected southern accent, they can still spot me with the thought of he looks white but he’s not white he’s a person of color but not someone you see everyday or hardly ever. As I stepped off to walk out I responded with a “I’m probably the only Filipino Redneck you’ll ever meet in your life whose married to a black woman” In which I got a quick response of I’m pretty sure she said “nothing wrong with that” (in a powerful, prideful tone) As I walked out of the door with a smile building on my face.
I reckon sometimes random people you don’t know you end up finding out you might have something in common to both be proud of.
These are the kind of days that will be upon us before we know it. Mornings like this when it’s chilly and yet calm is when I think of a good cup of coffee and a smoke go hand in hand, while just taking that few minutes out of your life to appreciate life and it’s beauty and the calmness.
One thing I like about early morning photo exploration in Richmond. I can be out and no one is out to interfere with me, unless someone tries to rob me of my 60D, which in their case would be a very bad idea.
There are things that I do now that I didn’t in a past time, things that I do without even thinking and then I catch myself. I don’t like being out in public now, I can’t stand being around people, and if it’s large amounts of people I avoid it and or try to limit my time there as much as possible as I am hyper aware of my surroundings and it starts to cause overload on my senses after a while. I keep my back to the wall, scan everyone profiling for that person (threat) that doesn’t seem right and then I realize that I am doing it all without even thinking about it (muscle memory).
The thing is I don’t like to talk about anything like this with anyone, not even my own family, unless it’s a person who has been there and can relate on that kind of person level.
The VA declared June PTSD Awareness Month. So if you know someone who you think might be living with PTSD help them get the help they need, don’t assume that it will just “be ok” with time.