Posts tagged: stars
We’ve had this rain all day up until around 4pm EST today. I just got home from Walgreens and getting a few thing. I just happened to look up to notice how clear the night sky was and also how well I could see many stars considering where I live is in a very light polluting area. Had brief thoughts of seeing the galaxy while I was out in the middle Pacific Ocean standing on the flight deck at night no land within a thousand miles of us, or how I was smoking a cigarette at night in the middle of nowhere Afghanistan, just looking at the stars and watching my cherry moving up and down as my hand moved to and from my mouth. Either way appreciating life is just that, appreciating life.
At 27 years of age, I am finally figuring out life and what life means to me. I have full intent on living the rest of my life whether or not it may be for 50 more years or 50 more days. I did not understand that concept for many many years, I was living but not living life. I know what I want to do with my life now, and I know what it took to get there to the understanding of that. Learning to ride and buying a motorcycle was the first 45%, I have taken many journeys on my FZ1, seen many things. The 2nd 45% was and still is my interest in filming, and after 3 years of screwing around with video and finally after buying my Canon 60D that did nothing but help release my true perspective on film and video and even photography. Both of those combined with a small 10% of my personal lifetime experiences have opened my eyes to “my life”
I believe now that the reason most people don’t know what they want to do in life is because of one reason. They choose not to pursue their dreams by letting themselves get enveloped with life’s huge wasteland of unimportant BullShit. To be so sucked into a life of drama when there no need or point in it, but for whatever reason they allow it to become not just a part but the majority of their life. To not take risks to live a safer/risk free life so one may retire in their 60’s (WTF am I going to do and how am I going to live when I am past my prime by 3 decades or longer) To live to a ripe old age, does living that long make it and more correct or righteous than someone who only lived 22 years vs 82? Death is awaiting all of us, and I still don’t understand why people are so scared of something that is the only unavoidable FACT of life. No amount of surgery, make up, eating healthy, exercising, whatever is going to keep you from dying, but I guess that’s just a difficult subject for people to grasp until they have been near death themselves.
I am coming close to a point in my life once again where I will be able to enter a place of deep thinking and thoughts. A place where I will once again realize that life is so much simpler than we think and make it out to be. Last time I was about to just get into deep thought like that I vividly remember I was in the smoke pit, lighting up a camel wide, taking a few puffs as I peered into the night sky, the thousands of stars and the galaxy were visible since I was thousands of miles from nothing while looking out upon a vast ocean. You’d be surprised what you would think about when you can find a place of peace like that where it is nothing more than a cigarette, and a peaceful ocean and star filled night sky.