Posts tagged: thoughts
I’m rather annoyed, pissed and disappointed with a specific person I talked with today at the VA. Just makes me wonder, why work here if you seem like you don’t give a shit!
Very relaxing piano from William Georges aka Tastelike Cake. To me listening to it is like having a flashback and seeing your life flash before your eyes all at the same time. Putting one into a relaxed yet deep thinking mode.
I’ve always wanted to go out in the rain, and I don’t mean light rain I mean piss pouring monsoon type shit and take photo’s. Problem is that’s going to ruin my 60D. One day I’ll do it, when I can figure out how to not ruin a camera I spent $1500 bucks on.
Short film by a former soldier about PTSD. Probably the best video depiction I’ve seen so far. The ending though is something that is I think the best part, because there are things that only other Vets will understand.
These are the kind of days that will be upon us before we know it. Mornings like this when it’s chilly and yet calm is when I think of a good cup of coffee and a smoke go hand in hand, while just taking that few minutes out of your life to appreciate life and it’s beauty and the calmness.
In a perfect world I would not live where I live or do what I do. I’d move elsewhere in the mountains of the norther Rocky’s of western Montana, or Easter Idaho, or even up to Alaska. Being one with God’s green earth, without the interference of Bullshit from other people and the endless drama that we create and for what, what good does it bring us as a people as a whole? Just my Guns, my family, my Jeep, my Stihl chain saw, and the forest enjoying life just making it, you know surviving without having to depending on anything or anyone else for it. Nothing like felling a tree, cutting it up into mill logs and or for fire wood. You know, well some know splitting wood with nothing but a maul or splitting axe, and that smell in winter or that oak burning. Love that smell can’t wait for it this winter to be honest. Guess my life and the events of my life made me who I am. I never grew up in the city, but I never grew up in the country either. I was born in the mountains in the Philippines, but I’m still southerner at the same time, the only Filipino Redneck I know of, and the only pacific islander or Asian I know of that talks with a southern accent. My first job ever was tree work and logging along with some contract grass maintenance for the first year. And to those of you who have never done logging or tree work and or at least for my old boss, it’s flat out the most physically demanding thing I have ever done in my life. So I guess you could say living on the land and the outdoors are part of my genetics, in my DNA, but also learning about felling trees brought a new respect for nature and living. I guess it’s like this my daddy instilled “a honest day’s work” in me, while my first job/boss instilled “you’ll work your ass off and get er done.” And truth is ain’t neither one of those ever failed me.
First off I want to say that this is not my work, but the work of someone else. I greatly admire this video, the simplicity of it and yet the passion that is shown for what one loves to do is remarkable.
I myself like motorcycling, and it’s been 14 months since I have been on a ride to the mountains. Ironic it is winter as I have returned, the bike needs work before it hits the street once again. But for me this video holds more value than just motorcycling. It’s the hope of the future, of better things to come, living life and most of all enjoying life, and loving life and all those people and things who make it up.
That’s how I see it, living and loving life while we can and are able to, because it’s never a promise that will will live to be that nice old age and say we saw years come and go and watched as things changed. So enjoy life now never later, because later may never come.
Since arriving back in the States 3 weeks ago I get asked these 2 questions more than any other. Here’s what I am asked and my answers without going into a detailed answer.
Q-How was it?
A.-Could of been better could of been worse, at the end of the day I only care about one thing, those I know who are still there all make it home safe!
Q-Would you go back?
A-I would go back without hesitation, but not for the Afghans or Afghanistan. Only for those I would serve with.
There will be a few who understand exactly what this photo speaks, without me ever having to utter a word about it.
I left and it was winter back home in Richmond. When I return it will be the same time of year of the same month just a year later, winter. Winter does bother me, the cold doesn’t either other than making my joints ache. I think it’s a good thing that I return during this time of year, when things are slower, and life isn’t trying to race by in a flash. I had a taste of home not long about for 2 weeks out of the entire year, and it’s going to be different. I can see myself just anywhere once I’m home as things just fly around me at breakneck speed. I just observe and think about things I need to do and living life. I see life in a totally different way now, and life is something that is taken for granted greatly by pretty much everyone. But I have at least realized it’s not that complex, it’s actually pretty simple, just being happy and making it while being happy, and doing what you love to do not doing something because you think you don’t have a choice in the matter, because there is a choice always is unless you just lock that door on yourself and leave no option.
Just thought about how I have probably passed by someone that is active here on tumblr on one of my photo outings in one of the parks or whatever here in Richmond.
Thinking of how I want to do a video about Richmond. How will I capture it all on film, that’s the question……
Going to head out west today in this chilly sunny and to be windy day. As much as I take pictures and the video’s I’ve done of RVA, there is much more to Virginia than Richmond. Back roads that go westward can bring one to amazing sights and places of tranquil peace and beauty.
At 27 years of age, I am finally figuring out life and what life means to me. I have full intent on living the rest of my life whether or not it may be for 50 more years or 50 more days. I did not understand that concept for many many years, I was living but not living life. I know what I want to do with my life now, and I know what it took to get there to the understanding of that. Learning to ride and buying a motorcycle was the first 45%, I have taken many journeys on my FZ1, seen many things. The 2nd 45% was and still is my interest in filming, and after 3 years of screwing around with video and finally after buying my Canon 60D that did nothing but help release my true perspective on film and video and even photography. Both of those combined with a small 10% of my personal lifetime experiences have opened my eyes to “my life”
I believe now that the reason most people don’t know what they want to do in life is because of one reason. They choose not to pursue their dreams by letting themselves get enveloped with life’s huge wasteland of unimportant BullShit. To be so sucked into a life of drama when there no need or point in it, but for whatever reason they allow it to become not just a part but the majority of their life. To not take risks to live a safer/risk free life so one may retire in their 60’s (WTF am I going to do and how am I going to live when I am past my prime by 3 decades or longer) To live to a ripe old age, does living that long make it and more correct or righteous than someone who only lived 22 years vs 82? Death is awaiting all of us, and I still don’t understand why people are so scared of something that is the only unavoidable FACT of life. No amount of surgery, make up, eating healthy, exercising, whatever is going to keep you from dying, but I guess that’s just a difficult subject for people to grasp until they have been near death themselves.